This girl...

It may be hard to know what this girl is thinking.

She walks with a smile, even as her world is crumbling down.

At the worst of times, she'll put on that smile so that no one knows she's hurting.

She doesn't want anyone to try to make it better.

She doesn't want sympathy.

Fits of giggles or stupid jokes that probably aren't funny are her way of dealing with tough situations - when others are around.

But alone...

This girl knows the feeling of hurt.

Alone...

This girl can't control the tears.

A few seconds in an elevator,
A few minutes in a tanning bed,
A few minutes with the music off, driving alone...

She lets go.

And it feels good.

But...maybe a little lonely.

Thank you

No matter how ready you think you are for some things in life, you really aren't prepared for how you'll react and/or feel once its done.

Despite being an overanalyzer - preparing myself for every possible angle and scenario - you just can't prepare for the reality of it all.

People come and go in your life, and it's a glorious and sometimes sad thing. Everyone touches you and forms you, in some way, shape or form.

Some people are hard to let go of.

Even if it's for the better.

Somehow you have to cope. Learn to deal. Grow from it.

Remember the happy times. Remember the laughter. Be thankful for the time you had together.

I always will.

Many many moons

Over and over, paths have crossed.

So much living. So much growing. So much learning.

As always, the thirst for...it all... burns inside.

As difficult as it always was... this is the hardest it's ever been.

Timing is everything, right? So why do I feel this is not the time...

Is everything at risk this time?